Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Overcome the Lie.

"Overcome the Lie is a social media campaign running January 28th to February 3rd at The Story Project. We are continuing to believe that Jesus is going to encounter our hearts and He is going to break off some of the lies we have believed. We are not held victim to the lies that we aren't beautiful or unloveable or never enough. We are more than conquerors and we get to rise above and believe the truth."

You know who I was say...6-7 years ago? I was confused, anxious, withdrawn, emotionally needy, depressed, negative, & lost. It was hidden from many but obvious to some. I was overmedicated to compensate for the anxiety & depression I struggled with. I was fed the lie by the enemy that I couldn't be anything more. I thought that was the best the I could ever offer this world because I wasn't strong enough to overcome it. I thought I was no good to God because I was so broken..because of who I was and how I took on life. I felt like I had no value or worth. The lies from the enemy are strong and I had no clue they were there. I would say that was rock bottom for me...where is there to look when your at rock bottom? Up!

The tremendous turn around of where I was then & where God has brought me now is amazing. Those who have only met me in the past few years probably have no idea that I was that way. The transformation that God has placed in me is beautiful. Sure, I've failed - I've fallen time and time again - but He's always picked me back up and I confidently believe He is working in me today, tomorrow, and until the day He welcomes me home. In HIM, I have overcome. In HIM, I will overcome. I am a conqueror in Christ. He has conquered through me. Wretched me. If I desire to be more for Him, he will shape me - change me - mold me into the extraordinary. 

It's easy to think we're not good enough. We can't do enough. We aren't special or talented or creative or loveable. The world tells us that. Our unnecessary comparison to others tells us that. God didn't make us to be like anyone else.

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb."
Psalm 139:13

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart..."
 Jeremiah 1:5

I know these are popular/frequently used verses and it's easy to overlook but really read it...absorb it! GOD, the creator of all things beautiful, created YOU. He made you. He took the time to craft every detail about you. He cared enough to make you and to form you and to appoint a purpose for you. How awesome is that?!

I still feel awkward in social situations at times, I still doubt my self worth at times, I still can't public speak, I still I have some issues about my true beauty, I find myself wondering how my menial housecleaning/diaper changing/laundry washing/grocery shopping can really have significance. I have lots He is welcome to change in me but it's a process not an overnight deal. It involves defeating those enemy lies that I am not good enough but I'm ready for it. 

Join with me in overcoming the lies. Let's radiate the love of Jesus.

I have terrible blog grammar.

I'm a correct spelling, correct grammar, & correct capitalization kind of gal.

Except on this blog. (<------note -="" a="" actual="" an="" and="" anyone="" are="" begin="" br="" but="" case="" complete="" correct="" do="" how="" i="" illiterate="" in="" is="" it="" just="" know="" life.="" m="" much="" not.="" not="" person="" pretty="" sentence.="" sentence="" shouldn="" t="" that="" there="" things="" think.="" thinks="" to="" whatev="" who="" with="" worse="" write="" you="">

This has been a PSA. 

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Overweight? I'm cool with that.

I haven't really posted much about my weight loss lately. The holidays had me paranoid & I've just been so busy lately that I haven't put as much effort into it as I had been previously. I'm finding it hard to make it to Zumba between work, Zeke, & a bunch of other things that have to be done in a week. I have been exercising from home though for the time being.

I am happy to say that I stepped on the scale yesterday & weighed 185.5 lbs. (Obvi, I have no shame about talking about my weight. I really don't see why people freak out about it. I'm generally pretty open about stuff though cause I think it's easier that way.)

While most people wouldn't be excited about weighing that much I am because for the first time in at least 5 years my WII told me my BMI was considered overweight. Um, YES! I've fallen into the "obese" category for a long time now.

Let me clarify something though: I believe that all body types are built differently. I believe that I am built to be curvy, voluptuous, a little meaty, whatever you want to call it. In no way or form have I felt "obese" in that last couple years. If I actually weighed like 135 lbs like the "healthy" BMI calculator suggests, I would look icky. I have hips, a big butt, and strong calfs/thighs. I'm not built to be some calculated size...this is part of my individuality as a women. Even when I hit my 150-155 goal, I will be on the precipice of being overweight but you know what? I'm cool with that.  

I'm excited because even though my weight loss has been a long several year slow process, it's been steady & I haven't gained my weight back. No fad diets, no HCG, just eating right, staying busy,  & excercise. I never have to worry about denying myself which means I never have to worry about a binge. I'm cool with that.

50 lbs DOWN & just 30 to go to reach my goal. I'm cool with that.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013


Someone posted this quote on Martin Luther Kind day on Facebook the other day and until reminded today, I totally forgot to blog about it until I was just reminded by another's post. I could probably add this to a list of favorite wise things that anyone has ever said.
"And when you discover what you will be in your life, set out to do it as if God Almighty called you at this particular moment in history to do it. If it falls your lot to be a street sweeper, sweep streets like Michelangelo painted pictures… like Shakespeare wrote poetry. Sweep streets so well that all the hosts of heaven and earth will have to pause and say: Here lived a great street sweeper who swept his job well."
Martin Luther King Jr.
How many of you feel inadequate because of your "station" in life? We think we need a highly regarded profession (or a giant house, or more money, a better marriage, kids who listen more, or a newer car or something from the host of things we use) to define us. We don't. Temporary fixes for empty souls. I know what I need. A Creator who calls me to greatness however He chooses. Whether you are a heart surgeon, a janitor, or a stay at home mom God will plant you where He wants you if you let Him. Wherever that is, you can be assured that it is great because it is His desire & will ultimately fulfill His purpose and what could be greater than that?
Here's to me remembering that I am exactly where God wants me in life right now & the more I trust and listen to Him; the more sure I can be of every circumstance in my life.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Snowmageddon. Sort of.

Here's the whiny part:
After days of rain and much flooding in our area, the weather took a sudden turn and dumped lots of snow very quickly this afternoon. My car was in the shop for a very expensive replacment of brakes, tires, & a battery. It wasn't ready & I was supposed to be 40 minutes away to pick up Zeke before daycare closed in an hour and the snow was beginning to pour. Anxiety begins. Sister can't get out of her driveway, my Dad got stuck in traffic and couldn't make it, & I hated to call Noah because he just pulled a 16 hour shift and was barely getting any sleep before having to go back in. Anxiety sets in. I did call him and the snow was really bad on our mini-mountain so he wasn't sure if he could get out or make it in time. Car is ready half an hour later. Fast forward another hour and what am I doing?

Sitting in traffic. (I ended up doing for almost 2.5 hours. I made it less than 5 miles in that time I think.) Noah's parents were on their way to get Zeke for him but he had to take him to work because even he couldn't make the short trip home. It was apparent that I wasn't making it home either. I had skipped lunch, I was hungry, and I really needed to pee. Anxiety is getting bad. Did I mention through all this that our Verizon cell tower was totally whack and no Verizon calls were working and texts were sporadic? I had no idea at one point if anyone was going to be able to pick up Zeke. The roads were terrible. People were wrecking, stuck, & pulled to the side. Giant truck was driving stupidly in the emergency lane next to me. I was out of my element, I was nervous, I was getting angry. My anxiety was waaaaay up there.


Here's the praising part:
Midpanic, I tried to distract myself. I figured while I was standstill on the interstate that I would take a picture of the trees. They were beautiful. A picture of gloriously perfect snow covered branches.
Picture really doesn't do it here - it was very pretty.
 I rolled my window down to try to get a better picture & was so amazed by the quiet I forgot to take the picture again. Instead of the usual hustle & bustle of the loud interstate - the wooshing cars and whir of wheels on pavement - it was...quiet. Beautiful trees and beautiful clean white snow. Almost peaceful. Of course, when I looked ahead I was reminded of my current standstill traffic head-beating-on-the-steering-wheel worthy predicament. (Reminder to self: Jess, Stop staring at the problem in front of you and appreciate the little miracles of God's handiwork.)
From that point on, I was alright. Anxiety subsided - I realized that it could only last so long and at least I had a chance coming up to get off the interstate where I could use the bathroom & get some food.
You know - it did all work out. Noah made it to pick up Zeke and got him safe, my wonderful inlaws gladly picked him up. After a cry for some divine intervention with cell towers, I knew Zeke was safe with Noah via text before I started panicing. (Notice I'm a bit of a panicker?) I was fortunately able & wise enough to pull of and park at a gas station instead of being stuck on the interstate any longer. There was a bathroom & I even got to eat Subway before they ran out of food (a lot of people stopped at this gas station). In the end, we all made it to homes safely and I'm currently snuggled next to the sweetest, snuggliest, quirkiest, & most loved little boy in the whole universe. (Bonus: Dad's house has DVR and a hot tub.) And tomorrow? Tomorrow we can play in the first real snow Zeke has ever witnessed.

Life isn't always good but God is incredible.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Kid's Bathroom Makeover

AH! A finished room!! *insert happy dance here*

As I've mentioned, I'm converting our old master bedroom/bathroom to the kid's playroom/bedroom and bathroom. I know the master bedrooms are typically the ones with the bathrooms but  we chose to forgo the bathroom in exchange for double closets and a little extra space. It works for us, especially since we rarely even used that bathroom ourselves. You can tell to because the bathroom was seriously lacking and the shower curtain was seriously dirty:

With some thrift store scouring, some elbow work, and around $20 out of pocket:

Much better.

I don't want to be totally misleading about my $20 spending...I didn't like hand sew the curtains from thrift store material. I'm not that good. ;)

  • The paint was free. I am a BzzAgent & I did a review in exchange for a gallon of Bejanmin Moore's Aura paint. I just had to do the work. (It really is excellent paint.)
  •  The shower curtain, towels, & a circular blue rug (you can't see it from here) were from Target. I combined sales & a $30 gift card I had received and only spent about $10-12 out of pocket.
  • The towel holder is a $1 thrift store find. It's one of the accordion coat rack thingamajigs hung vertically.
  • The toothbrush holder, qtip & cotton ball holder were thrift store finds for $1.50.
The waterspots on the faucet were free.
  • The illegibly scribbled (I'm a leftie.) chalkboard panel came from my crafting stash.
  • Your off to great places..TODAY is your day...Your mountain is waiting so get on your way! (A favorite Dr. Suess quote)
  • The wall art is from PaperCoterie. They had a good promo going for a free store credit so I got two & just paid shipping. Cost about $3. (They self stick to the wall which is awesome & remove super easy.) The wire basket was another $1 thrift store find. It now houses toilet paper & washcloths.

 A before/after:

I don't think either kid really gives a lick what it looks like at the stage in their lives but I'm very very happy with it. 

Friday, January 11, 2013

A Favorite Wardrobe Accessory

This post brought to you by No nonsense. All opinions are 100% mine.

I don't have a very complicated wardrobe style. I have a lot of things are are easily combined to create the kind of outfit I'm in the mood for - one of my favorite versatile clothing items are leggings - especially fun colorful ones. I like having a wardrobe that can be practical or eclectic. I also do not like to spend lots of money on clothing...ever.


 No nonsense has a new line of colored tights &amp; leggings that make it simple &amp; affordable to add a fun pop of color into my outfits.  I like them for the following reasons:

  • Multiple color choices
  • Very affordable
  • Easy to find at food &amp; drug stores and mass retail store

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Wednesday, January 9, 2013

2 Corinthians 12:15

Last nightaround 1am (I know this because I was up reading...), Zeke stumbled into my room  and looked at me with sleepy eyes that said "I want to snuggle with you". While I make him go to sleep on his own & in his own bed, I secretly enjoy those last few hours of sleep where his warm little body snuggles into mine; so I hefted him up onto the bed & we laced our fingers together (the kid loves to hold hands when he snuggles).

Then we had a most precious exchange:
Me: I love you.
Zeke: I yuv you mo. Night night.

At that, all stresses and frustrations of raising a strong-willed (somewhat defiant) child just melted away. I realized how truly blessed I am to have such a healthy & sweet little boy. I take motherhood for granted far too often & let the difficulties of toddlerhood define who I am as a parent and who Zeke is as a child. I find myself looking at motherhood as a task, chore, or duty but it's a privilege that God has blessed me with.

 My heart is full of the love I have for that kid and I need to remember to always always show him that.

So here's to another goal for the year: Be a mother (& wife) with more joy & less grumbling.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Bookworm. Nerd. Whatev.

For fun, I thought I'd check my Kindle for the number of books I read last year.

Erm, 45. (I also read a few on my sister's Nook & a few paperbacks, too.)

I might have a problem but hey - some people watch hours of TV, I just happen to prefer reading. Seriously, if I had to pick between by TV or books, books would win by a mile. I don't just read - I devour. Speedreading is my specialty. I hate putting a book down

Wanna know what started my reading passion? A book fair in the 2nd grade and these books:

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No joke. I've been a sci-fi/fantasy geek since childhood.

O, and my favorite Disney Princess is The Little Mermaid.

So how about you guys? Any other avid readers? Know how many books you read in 2012?

Friday, January 4, 2013

Favorite 2012 Furniture Re-Dos

I accomplished a lot on the homefront last year. My 3 biggest projects were our bedroom, our main bathroom, & the kid's bathroom. I have yet to show you the finial finished rooms (though I plan to, soon!) but I do want to share my 3 favorite furniture makeovers for 2012:

1. My $10 side table 

2. The $3 footstool from the thrift store that the lady thought I was crazy for buying

3. Our long hunted for perfect sized dresser for our bedroom
Yea, I know that's not my family in those frames. That has changed since I took this. :D
Actually, these are probably my three favorite of all time.

& I will eventually get around to sharing the makeover's for each room as well. Let's see if this year can be as productive as last!